All praises due to Allah (swt) who blessed me the opportunity to be muslim and embrace his beautiful deen. Alhamdulillah a week before Ramadhan I started practising with the help of Allah (swt) and the dua and effort of my Shaykh Banaras Owaisi. ALLAH HU AKBAR means ALLAH is the greatest, this would always be on my conscience that do I actually truly mean this whenever I say it??..
Due to previous incidents with close family and friends I have been scared of the whole concept of jinns as they can have permanent effect on one’s mind, as they did have with me. I sat itikhaf in this Ramadhan. One night approx 01:30am, I was with two other brothers reading books and studying Islam, a feeling came to me to do Dikkhar of ALLAH in a gathering so I switched the lights off and commenced the Dikkhar. After reading the Kalma we went onto the Dikkhar of ILL-LAL-LAA-HO-ILL-LAL-LAA which means, there is no God except ALLAH. As I started repeating this Dikkhar my voice became deeper and louder, the voice of the other brothers had faded out and I went deep into the Dikkhar and all of a sudden a very scary jinn came in front of me and tried to scare me. At that moment in time a thought came into my head that this is a test from the great one (ALLAH) to see if I would get scared and to see if I do actually mean ALLAH HU AKBAR. I got to a stage where I was so loud and raging back at this jinn, and at each time I would it would go back and then try and come again at me and this carried on for some time and all of a sudden something threw me over onto my side and my hands went into the air and Ayatal Kursi came onto my lips and I started to recite it in tears hoping to ALLAH that I didn’t fail that test. One of the brothers switched the lights on and said we should stop doing Dikkhar, the situation was still on my mind that I fear non but ALLAH, so I switched the lights off and commenced with the rest of the Dikkhar, the jinn tried to scare me again so I pointed up to the sky and said “get past my Lord first if you can”, then I told it that my Lord is too powerful, “get past Shaykh Banaras Owaisi & Abdul Qadir Jilaani R.A” I pointed at their name on the wall, then I told it that it will never get passed them to me, come through my Shaykh Banaras Owaisi if you can first, I pictured my Shaykh Banaras Owaisi and the jinn disappeared!! I went and visited my Shaykh Banaras Owaisi and he explained to me that I had gone deep into my Dikkhar that is why I encountered the jinn, that these are test from ALLAH. Alhamdulillah ALLAH (swt) has given my Shaykh the ability to master the troubles that these jinns can give humans.
I pray to ALLAH to give him a long life and keep his support amongst us and let him carry on with his deen work. We claim that we love ALLAH (swt) but when he puts us through tests to see if we do really love him we change our goals and don’t be happy with him.
Always remember that ALLAH (swt) only tests and gives problems to the ones who he loves because he knows that we will turn to none but him azawajal.